Life. I feel like I have no life. No energy fills up inside me.
Out of touch. I feel out of touch when the feeling to drink doesn't consume me.
Sucky. I feel like I suck when I am in my room when everybody else is getting drunk and partying.
Unexciting. I feel unexcited when I am being consumed with my negativity.
Real. I feel not real like I am just a doll being used as a toy.
When will I stop feeling like a loser but a winner.
I guess it is up to me whether I finally take control of my life or not.