Uselessness
Carelessness
I don't see the point to try
Depression
Wanting to die
Never seeing the light at the end of the tunnel
I can't understand why you tell me all this
I don't see what you're talking about
I've fallen to poverty
I don't feel like trying
Sound familiar?
I know I need something to survive
But the question is:
Do I even want to survive at all?
And no one will help me
But I don't know how to help myself
And I don't feel like I want to
I've given up
Given in
I honestly surrender
Let the will of life take me now
I don't believe in going on much longer than this
No point to anything
I can't find love, wealth, importance anywhere
What's my reason for being here?
I no longer have the will to exist
No motivation
Nothing to get me on my feet
And everyone ends up looking down on me
They try to help me
Give me advice
But I don't take it
Because I'm ultimately stubborn and lazy
I don't see anymore paths to take
Stuck on a dead end with my hands in my pockets
Waiting for a sign but nothing ever shows up
So I sit and cry
With hands over my eyes
My head hung low
No more lifting up
Depression hurts
More than anything in this world
But I'm too hard-headed to let anyone get me out
I've wrapped myself around my guard
My hole is my sanctuary
There is nowhere else to go
I fear I'm alone but I won't change it
Because there's nothing that can convince me to
Once I try to be happy again
It never lasts long
A pessimist at heart
Why bother?
I don't remember true happiness
And I don't even know why I'm alive...