What happens after a night with a man?
Why do I suddenly freeze up and don’t know what to do.
This might be my problem, I can’t relax around anyone.
I was so uncomfortable with myself that I did not know how to act in front of him.
I wasn’t ready for what happened but just went with the flow.
I just continued on going, not knowing what I was doing.
I am not happy with myself and maybe that is the biggest detriment I am facing.
Trying to live through my own expectations while I am failing.