You should never have lived.
Then you would not have had to go through so much pain.
The death of everyone around you,
the suffering you must have felt!
I loved you too much and ending up being the one to hurt you.
If I had only seen what was bugging you,
maybe I could have helped.
I did not think you wanted me around though.
You never said you loved me.
Maybe everything would have been better if you had never lived at all.
But now you are gone and I have known you.
Now I don't want to live at all.