I’ve wrestled the thought for days
Pick up the phone, just to hang up
The dial tone was proof enough
To break this calloused heart
And, maybe it doesn’t make sense
But, it’s the best I’m able to convey
How hollow missing you has made me
And, why I still can’t contact you to this day
And, longing doesn’t feel like I imagined it to
Instead of my heart desiring the pursuit
My heart is only desiring the bad news
That a broken heart can undo with enough time
I missed you, and forgot to live my own life
Distraught and down-trodden I began to realize
That sometimes, the only thing hope does
Is provide an excuse to close your eyes
And, lose your dreams in the desire
Of reestablishing what has died
And, taking into account my addictive personality
It’s almost impossible salvaging
The broken relationships surrounding me
And, the consequences of rarely letting go
If there are reasons in the mistakes that I’ve made
And, if time does reveal them
The way time supposedly reveals lessons such as those
It’s probably best I catch my breath
So, that when wisdom comes, I’ll know
How not to repeat myself