I feel dead inside,
as if…
there is no reason for me to go on living.
I know I will.
God,
I know I will.
I know I will,
for I still have those who care
for me.
Friends.
Family.
The top of that head.
The top of that
head so distinguishable
now,
it is useless to be
clueless.
My heart knows.
My heart feels.
My heart needs.
My heart wants.
My heart clenches
and breaks,
with every word
spoken
and every
breathe he takes.
My
heart
shall never
be
healed
again,
so do not even
try.