Bent as far as I can go,
stretching myself and my wit,
Fighting for the best pieces of myself.
I am concave,
I am not complete.
In my life I push and pull each day,
smile and laugh - doubt - trying.
Solitude is enticing, an intermission -
but a trick of the senses.
What I want most is a You,
capricious as I am
I desire desire.
I've felt unaccompanied in my life
and feel routine being alone....
but the clouds are parting, a new picture in my heart -
a want to fill the void -
for you to hold onto me.
Shroud me with yourself.
Keep me warm always,
never let me believe I am lone
ever again.
Let me feel your heart beat against mine,
overwhelm me, stifle me with your world.
[For so long I've felt alone - alone in my mind, alone
in my heart, alone in my body. Hold me down until I'm certain
I was never alone, never unloved,
never forgotten.]
Only your virility can save me,
your strength giving me rest.
You are my warm safe siesta.
Let me close my eyes in your arms,
and open them to the comfort of your face.
A place that I belong,
like a key in a lock
Open me
and don't let me go.
This S how I feel about God
This S how I feel about God and Jesus.
everything I am all my success is rooted in that. A generosity unparalleled despite my failings at being human sometimes. I am never alone unless I want to b. I have everything I need and most of what I want but I love y solitudes it is a real gift. Happiness is in the eye of the enboldened. I never used to understand that. I e been through every belief system because I needed to see the future. Turns out I only needed to enjoy and appreciate the now. I hope the lessons come earlier and the results happier for everyone.
Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS
"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."