With a Heart made so thinly
Of flour, paper and water
And the mask I wear daily
made the same way
Using one to fill a vacant place
The other is the necessary lie
The very face of that lie portrayed
Smiling, always, but stopping at the eyes
The eyes that look away
My heart and my face
Made to face my friends
and the strangers
They don't feel the same,
they don't understand
So it is better this way
A fake face to disarm their gazes
It was they that said the hurting fades
though I waited,
and I did wait
And my hurt, it stayed,
never faded
still remains the same
So strange and odd I must be
So I made the face
that I wear to face them
It smiles the way they say I should
And protects my pride,
and insecurities
It makes them see what they want of me
and lets me be who I am
Unlike the real thing
this paper mache heart
fills an empty place
It cannot beat and will not love
It is simply a reminder of the heart
that once shattered
all that was lost.