only the present is beautiful, but soon enough
it sinks straight into the ugliness of the past
keeps moving with me inside of it, this life so rough
i refuse to function correctly, i’m just in last
i won’t move in this machine, too far outside of the circle
keep living your lives, because i won’t be a part
there’s no reason to believe when you live inside of lies
not allowed to be human, it’s blackened this heart
not permitted to live as myself, i’m stuck as someone else
because beneath this mask, even i’d rather not see
not allowed to be alive, just discarded on this shelf
failed to become what i’ve wanted to be