I am dead.
I died a painful death.
I was tied to a bed post.
Gang raped by 9 men.
A belt looped around my neck.
I am dead.
A pillow held over my face.
Fighting for my last breath.
Slowly slipping away into darkness.
Hearing my heartbeat come to a halt: silence.
I am dead.
I laid in the bathtub.
It filled with my blood.
The stab wounds were deep.
Coldness was welcoming to my soul.
I am dead.
I watched as I slid the razor over my wrist.
I cut them both the right way.
Deep enough to cut into my soul.
My body becomes disconnected.
I am dead.
I didn't make this choice.
Until the end, when the pain came.
I couldn't let it keep happening.
I have died inside over a million times.
My soul is broken and empty.
My heart is undesired and shattered.
My scars are the only love I have.
I am dead finally at last.
But I am still breathing into this injured world of mine.
~Kesha~