I went for a walk yesterday,
the sky seemed darker,
the grass had lost it's whisper.
I felt the wind in my hair,
a breeze go through my fingers.
I remembered you,
the sound of your voice,
the laugh I'll never hear again.
I heard my favorite song,
and I started to cry.
You wanted me to sing one day,
so I did, just for you.
I cried empty tears,
replaying each word you said.
I started to hate myself,
and I remembered our deal.
So I looked at my reflection,
just for you, because in your eyes,
I was beautiful.
I wanted to bleed,
to make my pain go away.
But I put my razors aside,
I stayed safe, just for you.
I saw a star, and I thought of you,
are you up there,
watching over me?
You always wanted me to smile,
when I was angry or sad,
so I'm smiling, Chris, just for you.