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I tried
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Family I tried to be your little girl,
but I could never seem to please you.
I tried to be happy,
Tried to be a regular girl,
but my heart was too full of pain.
I tried to stop stealing,
lying, but it was all I knew.
I tried to get along with her,
but she never wanted me,
daddy don’t you see?
I tried to fix things,
tried to be her friend,
walking on eggshells,
everything always ended with fighting anyway.
I tried to love her,
tried not to put you in the middle,
but she dragged you in,
with each slam of your door.
I tried to say sorry,
even for what wasn’t my fault,
but she never accepted my apologies.
I tried to make her happy,
silence and locked doors,
I tried to get away,
I’m sorry daddy, but I tried to kill myself,
tried to run away,
almost every day.
I tried to fix me,
tried to make her happy,
I’m sorry I caused the fights,
I tried to be good enough for her.
I tried to block it out,
when I heard her screaming.
I tried not to look,
at the bruises,
all because she hurt you.
I tried not to notice,
as the tears fell from your eyes.
I tried not to let you see,
all the pain inside of me.
I tried to get help,
I’m sorry I didn’t tell the truth.
I’m sorry I hurt her,
Dana, I hope you forgive me one day.
I tried to do the right thing,
I thought my mother could help me,
I’m sorry dad, I couldn’t be a better kid.
I tried to talk to you,
for a year and a half,
you refused to speak to me.
I tried to grow up,
but got caught in the darkness,
seduced by the razor’s promise.
I’m sorry, I tried to be a good mom,
but I failed her too,
just like I failed you.
I’m sorry, I tried to be a sister,
lied to protect him.
I’ve tried to make you proud,
but have only failed miserably.
I tried to stop cutting daddy,
but it’s too late.
Scars all over, arms sting in pain,
still I’m lying to you,
by saying I’m okay.
I’m sorry daddy,
I tried to be your sunshine,
but it’s too late,
I’ll never be that girl again.
