As i look through my journals, as i look up at my walls
i sit and i wonder if i was ever really happy at all
i see my smiling face trying to hide my growing disgrace
i look into those big brown eyes and see what i try to hide
my eyes, brown cause im so full of shit
my heart, god it cant take much more of this
the problems in my life, ive caused them all on my own
the solutions surround me, and yet i still feel so alone
i hear the empty bottle calling to be filled
i find myself answering it as i slowly lose my will