WHY CAN'T I FIND?
(T. Beechey)
Why can't I find the words to unmask? So that finally one day I could bask
That's all that I want, all that I ask and really nothing more
Why can't I find the words to unlock? I stand at the door, but I'm afraid to knock
So instead the rhythms of a ticking clock are all I'm living for?
Tell me the reasons I cannot find
What's written above the underlined
How did I become intertwined
With times so cruel and unkind?
Why can't I find the words to express the feelings my soul yearns to confess?
Why can't I find that lost happiness that I knew so long ago?
Why can't I find the words to explain? All of my life I've searched in vain
And I know they're just beyond the rain that from my eyes does flow
Tell me the reasons I cannot find
I fear as the years slowly unwind
I'll never discover for what I have pined
Is that how my fate will be designed?
Why can't I find the words to reveal? Sometimes I wonder if it is real
Only I know this pain that I feel and it's true, I have no doubt
Why can't I find the words to reply? No matter how many times I try
I always end up asking why on the inside looking out
Tell me the reasons I cannot find
Is it all just in my mind?
Maybe I'm lost, maybe I'm blind
Or maybe the sunlight hasn't yet shined