IDLE HANDS
(T. Beechey)
Someplace between nowhere and nothing
I cling to dreams long ago lost
Tossed aside for another's misgiving
Why am I living? What is the cost?
I no longer have any conception
Why I've been kept if I can't partake
Perhaps I'll awake and come to discover
Some other choice that I can make
Idle hands define my purpose, I can't even muster a feeble excuse
What's the use? No one listens as I'm dismissed and reduced
Why do I remain where I'm unwanted?
The runt of the litter is my reward
I feel the sword go deeper and deeper
To reap the bounties I can't afford
So, I embark on my own journey
But every turn is ill-conceived
How can I believe that there's an answer
As each chance I take is seldom achieved?
Idle hands shall be my downfall, already I'm dulled to nothingness
Still I press on, already knowing I'm going where souls cannot confess
Someplace between nothing and nowhere
I stare blindly at a darkened screen
All the meaning's gone and there's no longer
Right or wrong on which to lean
Decisions made without my consenting
Meant to enhance, but merely succeed
In leading me further down the pathway
Away from everything that I need
Idle hands are my undoing, renewing my faith in apathy
All I can see is my faded image, dimming against society