Blah to the day

The day starts and ends in the dark

The ups and downs of each day,

play on the nerves and dictate your mood

but to much ups and downs your mood just levels out

you feel the joy, you feel the pain

and wonder why your so indiffrent

You see all around you happy and sometiimes you feel it too

but other times it like your in a funk.



You dont feel the joy of the goals set and reached,

or the delight of the last minute of the day of work,

Just the indiffrence of nothingness,

Yet some ray of joy come back

at the sight of something or someone, and you've waited all day for that solitairy moment when you know nothing bad

will ever happen, not while there around.

nothing in your life seems to give you that stubility

but this one person or thing.



Do you think you could live without that,

Could you find that same joy in yourself, will you always

be addicted to this one person or thing,

Will your happiness rely souly one someone else

or something else



We spend our days waiting for it, and one day when it doesn't come our world will crumble and falter like that of your windshield after a pebble as breached its structure

Weaving a spider web of cracks, till one day it crumbles down around you.



From day to day i love her and feel i always will but wonder whether things will alow me to continue showing her the joy she give me, Will one day i come home and find her gone

whisped away by and unseen hand from past lineages, or will she grow bored of me.

No not borred she says i'm be hers forever, Yet one thing still remains, the people she cares about accepting

a monster like me into there flock.

A sheep in wolf's clothing i think, my bite much less then my bark, i try and fight the feelings of losing with the her and now but one day will come when they will be told and the trouble will rise and line will be drawn as the gaurds are being alerted on there side as we speak.



I leave my heart in her hands knowing she will treat it with the care and love she treats the rest, and with her love all is possible to over come!

Author's Notes/Comments: 

yup its complicated!

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