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I feel disconnected

I feel alone

I don't understand where we went wrong

I don't know who you are anymore

I have never felt so alone 

I have never felt so damaged

I feel that you use to love me

I feel that you use to care

Now I don't know

Now I'm not sure

When you have kids you loose yourself

Did I loose you too 

What do you want 

Why do you stay

I can't take this anymore

I suffer in silence afraid to say anything

I know there is more you haven't disclosed

I can't heal until I know everything

Will you provide me with that knowledge

If not I can't heal

I can't stay

I will never be the same person again

I am damaged 

Still recovering from you

I don't even think you realize how you treat me

I don't think you realize when i'm sad

Do you know every night i lay in bed broken

wide awake

thinking

feeling

disconnected from you

For you to only turn me down every time

For you to be peacefully sleeping like nothing is wrong

I wish I could say how I feel 

I am so fucking afraid of how you will react

If I lose you 

I'm so disconnected I feel as if ive already left 

i'm terrified ive lost you

i'm terrified ive lost myself to you

if i'm so terrified why can't I tell you these things I need to say

i've already feared loosing you what's the worst that can happen

I need to have the conversation

I need to know 

I want to move on

I can't trust until I know everything

I know you will never share

What are we both doing here

What is the end goal 

If we are both not on the same page then we need to fucking walk away