A thirst, a hunger culminating in a gloom
Pervaded every palace in dynastic China -
From Xian to Luoyang, from Nanking to Beijing,
young men deprived of their virility and
voluptuous beauties their love
spun and hid their sorrowful tales.
Throw all these desperados an all powerful emperor
and he became a natural object of contempt.
A persistent jealousy suppressed
Kept gnawing at the hearts of the young men
Who saw him as having an all-important
Faculty which had been taken away from them;
And from the concubines who saw him only
as an illusive object amidst the thousands of Alexis
vying for his attention, their hearts
Naturally going back to the sweethearts
They had left behind in homeland.
All these unsatiated desires, miseries and
discontents painted that unhealthy gloom looming
over a palace where insecurity, power struggles and
bids for favours were intense.
Almost all lived a self-serving double life.
The swords fell on those who failed to negotiate that secured path for the two conflicting selves.