I have been revoltingly unfaithful to you
With words and with dreams
While you were away
Unfaithful with my eyes
My heart
But never my body
I held on to that medicine
That vanity and purity
The white and green
You never did want me
But you pretended anyway.
I hated you with my mouth
My arms and my legs
I hated you with the fire.
I burned your notes
One by one
Holding on until my fingers raged
You never did see
I hid it from you
By parading it in your eyes
Brightly colored floats
Bending and twisting
You never saw it
You looked so close
Squinting your eyes
You never saw it