I didn't know how I would handle it,
not knowing if the raging fire within me
could cease.
I guess it could.
Exploring a place I have been before,
having different mindsets.
Maybe this was an experiment,
my test.
I could not entertain thoughts,
I didn't care.
A different purpose to show up
last night.
The carnality in me still exists,
but does so in a vegetative state,
hoping it stays this way until
I can find the woman for me.
So that it can be everything it should be,
not out of self-satisfying fleshly desires.
That this is done in the act of love,
nothing else.
My volcano has become dormant once again.