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Shadows hunt my mind I cannot be
Shadows hunt my mind I cannot be. I cannot exist like this
I am taking out that which haunts me on the one I love the most
I am becoming the nightmare that has lain dormant in my soul
I cannot help but cry, over harsh words that weren’t meant but
They slipped out and cut and nothing was meant to hurt her but I fear I am
The dragon inside me fights constantly with the shadow, my ominous Nightmare.
I fight to exist in this world the dragon cries out I will not fall now.
Angels and demons watch in awe and wonder, I stand-alone and fight myself
I fight the nightmare that is or was me, to create room for what is or is to be
I am not who I was I will either fall into the shadows again or rise and live
I pray that I may rise and live for those who love me and for myself.
I pray that I the love I have may be that eternal love but in this world who knows
There is that shadow again it hunts me now an eternal misery Night
I am in love and I pray there is no other and that this is meant to be
The shadows and scars run deep inside me I will never be whole again
I will always wear and bare the marks of my past life and experiences.
I want to love freely I want to give and not worry about receiving
I want to live my life the way it was intended to be lived not dreamed
I want a family I want to grow old I want to make a difference
I want someone to fall asleep with and to share my day with, and to hear their day
I want to cry my heart out for the boy that never existed the childhood I never had
I want to change the way the world thinks and makes itself
I want people to live even if it comes at the expense of my life for I am the free slave
I want my words to exist in people’s heads even after I am gone from this life
I fall to my knees and pray I pray that these mere words may have a positive effect.
For the ink you see before you is not ink but it is the blood bled directly from my tattered and torn weary and broken soul.
May you be blessed in all that you do.
