i'll masturbate if i want to, you don't understand such things,
better than downing a few redbulls, gives my gray matter wings,
i sit back and remember, marina, college, high school and raj,
shoot up with computer images, ten times more ameliorating than a swedish massage,
abnormally abnormal, feel abnormally normal on a whim,
feel pain when its missing, desires act like a phantom limb,
conflict out of two non-entities, pit santa clause against the tooth fairy,
mock meat, i taste only as good as your seasoned vocabulary,
toothpicks create tents over my eyes, against healthy sleep patterns i defend,
feel what my ipod tells me, like most electronics - none of this i comprehend,
calculate numbers, the statistics, the chances, the yearnings,
you can read my arms like braille, documented like etched burnings,
i dream about what i don't have, dream about flirting with flirting,
radio waves, brain waves, ocean waves, dreams disconcerting...