avoid pain by dismissing the search for it, my advice to me,
love takes years to incubate, at this i can only guess you see,
baseline depression, bypass the pride for you didn't cause it,
we pretended, knowing such happiness was locked in the closet,
realistic version of perfection, realistic vision split to fractions,
it never prevented us - at least for a little while - from symbiotic distractions,
L word plays tricks on, teases: on this, too long our imaginations have relied,
how alone we really are, underneath any time unoccupied.