a split second, sacrificed any image of responsibility,
should have and could have, consequently haunts my ability,
the eyes of family, bump it down another notch,
do it - done - on my belt, add another botch,
actually it was a fairly large fuck up, possible death so grim,
stupid, idiot, naive, immature, thoughtless - and any other synonym,
wonderful memories of ignorance, latched to me such memorabilia,
discard me, append apparent diagnosis of kakorrhaphiophilia,
unconscious revisited trend? who the hell knows,
i hurt, hurt you, turn friends and family into foes,
wish, just wish i could go back, take the past and de-laminate it,
forever that way, etched in time, no way to de-contaminate it.