Can't offer much, love and care worthless as legal tender,
Heart heaves - mixed with rejection in the kitchen blender,
Being alone: powerful thoughts can cripple, make one shudder and cringe,
Teased with togetherness, another hit of hope as one prepares the syringe,
Led on and excuses fed, believe obvious lies - how pathetic can't be written,
Friend-hungry mouse, drawn to even the most bored, carnivorous, and sadistic kitten...
One-sided enjoyment boy toy, not worthy of a haloed ring finger,
Experimented with, quelled conscience with convictions that I malinger,
I don't know you and never will, but look, regardless it still stings,
I know the routine, words powerless against the reality of such things,
Love me back, back my love: fantasies that slowly drip down the drain,
Chest hurts from breathing water, even so, seems I can't drown the pain.