I'm red, swollen, fear moves in my general direction,
It spreads, I limp, deadly is this infection?
Only a matter of time, before my dumb luck runs dry,
Keep telling myself I'll change, too early to give a final good-bye,
For the attention, pity, I keep doing what I know I'll regret,
A new burn - a new bullet, too intense this game of Russian roulette,
I'm afraid, this time I'm truly scared,
Possible death? - to this nothing can be compared,
And for their concern, the few friends I have I constantly juggle,
Please luck prevail one more time, never again a self-induced struggle.