hi, depression induced stupor,
ability to recover un-super,
common theme,
in the sunlight tears beam,
no different, tonight the same,
extinguished, no more flame,
smoldering ash,
stick a hand in my chest, rip out a heart, toss it in the trash,
don't care, that's a lie,
to find her, forever, my hardest i try,
talk to no one, my mouth taped,
to find something, the bottom of hell i've scraped,
by life, i'm berated
under simplified, overly complicated,
the nights kill me, i just sit,
head bowed, look lower, bottomless pit,
each emotion, bludgeoned and minced,
wonderful family, a friend, yet unconvinced,
craigslist creeper,
visible the grim reaper,
lighters,
dreams, fleeting over-nighters,
computer screen in the a.m., computer screen in the p.m.,
saturday night rotting, might as well be phlegm,
masturbate, lube the pencil,
a loser, and i'm the stencil,
and i'm my own best friend, and i hate him,
radiated light, now every character trait dim,
multiple relationships, multiple fantasy lovers,
not seen, might as well be dead, stashed under the covers,
water,
hi, im max, can i please date your daughter?