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T.W
If this is it
the mental state
that I've been long awaiting
waiting
for that someday
when we're emotionally connected
when we too can be one
and now it's here?
this is not what I had expected
this is not what I had wanted
Our emotions
should have been positively tied
so you too could share in the graces
of something we once called
love.
You were the first
after the first
one I thought I could trust
with my inner self
only with you, I thought I was being
wise
by waiting, until I knew you wouldn't scar it
though
the moment that I decided
to let it down
to let myself out
you take your knife
and carve your initials
into it
and slowly
push it back in
to wait for the next time
I think I trust you.
but will that ever be
will it ever come to this again?
will I ever think that maybe
I actually have an emotion I can call
love
for you?
Or will it stay in me
until we can no longer be
and until I can give it to someone
who will actually give a thought
to whether or not
it's important enough
to handle gently.
That is what I did for you.
