I have been eaten
Fed, chewed
Spat out by you
Bitten right through.
Found and rediscovered a way
I sit in silence
Nothing interesting to say
Cannot face the world today.
Drew the curtains
Dimmed the lights
Treated days like nights
Lost the urge to fight.
I am at war with me
Battling with myself
Scraping at my wounds
Aiming at a target called me.
Who needs enemies
When you have yourself
I treated me worse
Than I’d treat an enemy.
I’ve had enough of playing pretend
Save the glory until my end
I lost the war, I lost the fight
Much to my self- loathing delight.
I am shedding blood of my own
In my darkened box called home
I lie in silence wondering why
I’m not on my own side.