I say my eyes were dangerously close to black. You laugh. You laugh because you don't know. You don't know that black eyes make me more like my father. You don't know that I see the person I fear most in black eyes. The eyes are the windows to the soul and my windows reflect the man that hurt me first, hurt me most. You don't see the fear I see in others when I have black eyes. Black eyes mean danger. Black eyes mean I'm losing me. Black eyes mean pain. Black eyes mean I need help. I say my eyes were dangerously close to black. You laugh. You laugh because you don't know. And you never will.