I miss my friend day in and day out the same thing and sometimes I feel so sad and like I am never going to get better the same thing everyday I am getting scared to go anywhere just my grown kids come to see me and my guy friend from Church but it's never going to be the way I want it to I am going to be alone for ever and then when I do go to Church I get teased to where I want to cry so then I just stay home and listen on line .