A feeling of self-loathing
That my soul cannot express.
And a hatred for my body
That only I could dead possess.
A music in my members
That sounds with numbing surge.
Songs of heroes failing,
A great man's dying dirge.
A panic of realization
That I am what I hate.
The tests to progress in life
I fail without debate.
A feeling overwhelming
That I may never change.
Stuck with who I am,
A soul I can't exchange.
I have failed again;
The cost I cannot face.
Feelings cried now scream inside.
A love I can't replace.