Laying here with thoughts spirling thru my head..
Ones of having no right for the thoughts and feelings I am having tonight..
Feeling as if my brain is on a roller coaster ride..
I am confused about what I should be feeling now about many things..
Though feeling I have no right for this confussion I am having..
I feel things..
Yet feel its not right for me to..
I have no right to feel anything..
I have people around me..
Yet still feel alone..
I have no right for them to be here..
I have those who love me..
Yet feel I am undeserving of it..
I have no right to feel love..
I feel the peoples feelings and love are not of those i deserve..
I have no right to any of it..