I have been told so many times when things are hard to pray..
That no matter what I will be granted a delivery of a lighter heart..
Sometimes though its so hard to let go..
Because it makes feel like I am out of control of my own life..
So like all others I have to tug-a-war with it first..
Even though all the time there is one that knows what is happening even before I say it.
One that is just waiting for to say I need the help..
Though I am allowed to hold on to whatever it may be till I am ready to let go..
When the day comes and I allow myself that lighter heart..
that is the day I will have a guaranteed delivery..