I sit feeling as if I am frozen in the past..
Seeing so much of it still in my future..
So much of it still follews me even now..
As if I have been frozen in time..
I see the child that went thru all the pains and fears of each day and night..
I see her tears fill her eyes..
I see this as I am frozen in time..
In a time when I learned to no longer trust or love..
For if I did Something scarey and painful always came my way..
a child that is forced to stay in those moments forever..
A child forever frozen in time..
No as a adult in the future..
Yet also still that child that will forever be frozen in time..