leave me back in yesterday.
take my hand - it's a fake.
breaks off at the wrist.
my last charade
left me all alone again.
this is who i want to be.
the ending that i chose.
nothing that you'd pick for me.
but you don't know my heart at all.
left me back on first base.
i ate your trailing dust.
gave me reasons to believe
you thought i was the truth.
but now you know to disbelieve.
and now you know to doubt.
so close your eyes and wish for me.
when i come you won't know it's me.
so hard to see but you're finally listening.
so hard for you to take me as i am.
but all i ask is for you to look at me.
see my eyes though all this mess.
all i ask is for your maybe.
that you may take the chance
on a poor victim's story
on a poor infidel
on a poor bastard's playground
broken toys and muddy skirts.
you see the real me and you wince.
i see you wincing and i laugh.
and reality can't hurt me
if i don't realize that reality
is more than the quickly
recovered smile on your face.