what terrible things I have done in my dreams
please put these hands behind bars
so all I have to give you is my sigh-
easiest when it’s all for you
but I keep speaking like all these ghosts
still once I get off the stage
I have things I want to whisper
but nowhere to throw them,
what a poor substitute for secrets,
when I am here I am
everything I don’t want me to be
the only way I don’t stay for a fourth dessert
is to somehow see myself out,
this is how I know why
they still call it a bruise once it’s healed.
if you could only see me pleading,
be more magic, less substance,
fit my chaos into a language,
take me with you.
we are all just change in a drainpipe,
whispers in january,
the mirror’s stupid mistakes.
we are all just god’s echoes,
murmurs shot out of cannons.