time is wasting you to a shred of yourself
(not that you know this
today)
and you turn to me and say
hello
I could almost cry
at how much you’ve thrown on me
half a world / of humans in this city
so now I cry for the lives you won’t know
all the beautiful things in your head
I won’t have a chance to hear anymore
oh / wonder is a fitting weight
for the kaleidoscope ink of our missing tomorrows
oh / hope is a hard thing to hold when I wake
and now it lies / beside a body
my heart lies to me that
busy will keep you alive
this bright sadness
says more about me than it does about you
I don’t know how your balancing act ended
but I am still stranded
funny how the lonely has built me an island
and not the other way around-
fuck I wish you were here
if not to tell me all the stories
then at least to build my lonely
I am still searching for someone
who will say hello
the way you do
someone with that angle of smile
that gravity
(make me your orbit)
someone with that particular
shade of everything