I know I got nothing right
I know I have nothing left
I can take all the right roads
and still be left spinning.
I can take all the left roads
and end up at the right kind of ocean
but not the right state of mind:
I have left you behind and
this is the right kind of leaving.
sometimes when I write
I use the left pen instead of the right one-
that is to say
the wrong one instead of the real one.
the one I have left you
it lays in our bed face down
so the pillow gets the ink smear.
that is to say that I am the ink smear.
I am never the right path to follow
I am left handed always wrong always right
I am the engineer with the right tools
but stuttering left behind
I am the constant
I run into walls that have been left unattended
and I leave you stranded when I make the right choice
to climb them or smash them.
baby I am twelve lights always left on
and never the right thing cooked for dinner
when you have left work and woke me from
the only time I have closed my eyes today.
so I write right
I write long
I write chapped
I write bold
I write shivering
I write lonely
I write small and messy
I write left handed
and hope it comes out-
left.