I make dark out of the best sunlight.
I keep looking behind me when it is all alleys.
So please
make me forget.
Caring a little too much,
trying not hard enough,
this past brings me to life.
I am still bathing in
love when it felt like a goal.
I am still wondering how I got here,
I am so broken I cannot fix you
I can’t fix my own chaotic mess.
I have stooped to the level of
using autofill to write my own poems
how can I even call them mine
if the algorithm has taken me.
I thought maybe all the memories could carry me.
I thought if I looked inside you right now
I could find an ending.
Something pulls me to the edges of all your stars.
Something crashes me into life.
I can’t unstitch myself from this shadow
I am afraid it is the something.
I don’t want to be this human
but I am so afraid I don’t have a choice.