i am
waiting waiting waiting
for you to love me
your memories of you
are a fraction of
my memories of you
and i still don’t have enough
to fill up all my empty spaces
i grab the letters
all my
silly little words
and wonder what makes this worth it
hey i
wrote you letters
hey i
wrote you suicide notes
hey i
wrote you the world
hey i
wrote you into my words
do you ever
maybe
think of me
i am tearing through all the papers
i will never send
because half of me is here
and half of me is in your memory
i am
waiting waiting waiting
for you to love me
the wind claws my skin i
don’t consider moving i
stay outside i did this to myself
why the fuck am i here
if i am still waiting for you to show up
knock on the door and
fix everything
you can’t fix everything you can’t
fix me