waiting waiting waiting

Folder: 
2020

i am

waiting waiting waiting

for you to love me

 

your memories of you

are a fraction of

my memories of you

and i still don’t have enough

to fill up all my empty spaces

 

i grab the letters

all my

silly little words

and wonder what makes this worth it

 

hey i

wrote you letters

hey i

wrote you suicide notes

hey i

wrote you the world

hey i

wrote you into my words

do you ever

maybe

think of me

 

i am tearing through all the papers

i will never send

because half of me is here

and half of me is in your memory

 

i am

waiting waiting waiting

for you to love me

 

the wind claws my skin i

don’t consider moving i

stay outside i did this to myself

 

why the fuck am i here

if i am still waiting for you to show up

knock on the door and

fix everything

 

you can’t fix everything you can’t

fix me

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Written 12/17/20

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