If only I could stop counting down minutes
maybe I could stay here long enough
to make a mark, pull you in to fall
If only I could hush inner hesitation
then I could breathe, blink, smile,
fall apart laughing, know you after all
But instead my twisted logic makes
every word an eternity,
every end a remedy,
every silence a stone,
every touch a broken bone
that glimmers in the darkness
Every mile a footstep,
every confession a regret,
every secret a surprise,
every color in your eyes
they meet mine and I’m hopeless
Insanity runs in my family, my veins
but somehow I got the worst of it
and I’m still learning how to human
Learning to behave with a lion’s tongue
caught in a harsh comedic act
where people love to pierce my skin
But instead my twisted logic makes
every word an eternity,
every end a remedy,
every silence a stone,
every touch a broken bone
that glimmers in the darkness
Every mile a footstep,
every confession a regret,
every secret a surprise,
every color in your eyes
they meet mine and I’m hopeless
Stop in my tracks, turn over my shoulder
I could lose my head and find the clarity
that carries all I’ll ever need
Remember the holes in everyday quilts
I could find my loss and lose my bruises
and know it’s okay to bleed
But instead my twisted logic makes
every word an eternity,
every end a remedy,
every silence a stone,
every touch a broken bone
that glimmers in the darkness
Every mile a footstep,
every confession a regret,
every secret a surprise,
every color in your eyes
they meet mine and I’m hopeless