I saw him today
I thought I could handle it
I cannot, though
It is just too much
To take in, digest
I do not know what it is
I get queasy when he is near
My heart races,
And my mouth goes dry
Hands clammy
The tears reach my eyes
Not when he can see them appear
Infront of him, I will not shed a tear
What I feared, came alive
He thinks he has nothing to hide
He better watch his back
And drop to the ground
I don't give up so easily
I have not found peace
How can I without closure?
The truth has been exposed
I do not want to see
What I fear to be true
Then I will know the truth
That his "I love you"
Was but a lie
He is nothing but a coward
He could never tell the truth
He ran when I needed words
How could I have loved
Such a vicious creature?
He never was himself
He is not worth my time
Yet I still dream of him
I will never know
What love is, again