Why does it have to be this way
I can’t forget your face
It’s like a memory on pause
Which I can’t move away from or replace
I just want you to hold me
Hold me like before
Tell me all those sweet things you told me
Just once more
Why do I want to be with you so bad?
Why do I still dream of you....
& long for the relationship that we never had?
I want to be happy
But don’t want myself to be happy without you
I don’t want to let go
Don’t tell me again that it’s through
& tell me I have to move on
Don’t tell me that soon you’ll be gone
You have pieces of me
I guess that’s what you don’t see
Why did it have to end so fast?
Why can’t we be together?
Maybe if I looked better
Or what I do not know
For whatever reason
I just can not let go
Today I sat down for the first time
I looked at the few pictures I have of you and I
For no apparent reason I began to cry
Why did things have to get so screwed up
The few times we were together just isnt enough
Something tells me to stay
When I should push the feelings away
Maybe there’s still hope
Letters locked away
inside white envelopes
Letters I write but know I’ll never send
Letters that I write just to ease the pain
Just to try and mend
I wish that you would let me in
Why did you give up on me so fast
And just shove me in your past
Am I not worth your time
Am I not what you hoped to find?
Its hard for me sometimes
To recognize my dreams from my reality
But I would give you everything I have
Go ahead just take it out of me
But is that to much for you
To much to understand
Just walk with me now
Maybe hold my hand
please dont say a word
more than likly it will just hurt me
whatever would be heard
I will try and show you
Try and show you who I am
maybe so you can understand
that it will be hard
But if you want me to give up on us
......Eventually I can
Am I just too much
Not deserving of your touch?
Place your hand over my heart
Can you feel the missing beat
That’s were it hurts
That’s where I’m torn apart
Here I am once again pleading for a someone to love me
just wishing that they cared
But I can’t beg anymore
So I’ll close my eyes
And shut the door
Lay alone in my bed
With you stuck inside my head
I wish I could go back to talking to you on the phone
hours on end
when you wanted to be more than just my friend
I try to make my self understand again
That you can’t make someone feel things that they don’t
Just except the fact that he even wants to be your friend.
I will not forget
I’ve thought about it
And giving it up to you is not what I regret
It’s getting to attached so soon
like I always do
I got attached agian this time it was with you
So here I am once more
right back where I started
but I’m still just stupid Erica
always broken hearted.