I.
Black rabbit
You make me kneel
in the dirt, in the silence of towering
trees whose leaves don't start
for meters and meters and whose
branches are ramparts, twisting, concealing
twitch twitch
so precise, so consistent
black rabbit
that I don't dare envy
this
and I expect you to dart
but you're unmoved
I'm impressed with you
and discouraged at myself
still, I am
still, you see
but ready for
darting
but there is
no darting
from you
as you stare at -
looking around
you are, I feel
disinterested
in me
I can't stop thinking
you are
unmoved.
II.
Moth, do you see this?
a perverted scene of knighthood
where a nose is a sword
and these trees, columns
rising towards the boundless ceiling
Moth, you're a fool - recognize
such sadness, below,
your wings, cloudy, sluggish
with a deadpan face that
I don't blame
when your mouth, elusive,
is so easily forgotten
I am sorry, Moth, I feel guilty
I long for a better companion
or at least one to absorb the lunacy
before us with,
sharing a popsicle
with a rocking chair
Moth, you are celestial
in your own place, beautiful
but I'm leaving you
to move closer still
on this scene
below these leaves like the hands of strangers
stars, as they twinkle and soothe,
don't make good friends
III.
I can't be bothered
with your feral nature
that plumes like smog
around the bases of
tall tall trees.
why do you insist
on showing me
the beautiful
and the useless?
I won't listen anymore,
or at least I'll say as much
since I have no say at all.
Your smokey presence seeped
over and under
my eyes;
forcing me to
rub rub rub
and cough.
I opened my eyes when
I thought I was rid of you.
But what you showed me -
one, dying on the forest floor,
no one ever told him the meaning of life,
and one, meloncholy chirping on a branch
"She still haunts me."
IV.
So deep in, I am,
that looking left
is identical to looking right,
and looking up
is no longer like seeing
oaks as towering kings
that make the clouds
their bowing subjects,
but being at the murky base
of a deep wooden vault that was
not meant to be broken into,
and therefore has no way out.
The best course of action now
(or maybe my phantom just convinced me)
is to dig
down
just a little
and be eaten by the leaves.
V.
Black rabbitt, minister
unholy bunny -
it is not clear
whether you created this place
or just named it
or made it submit
to the tips of your dangerous
paws
to your fur, a field of heath at night
to your tail,
twitch twitch
a warlord's cry
to your eyes, unlucky marbles
How can I
keep myself from unraveling
after what you've shown me.