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Life Goes On
"Life goes on,"
that's what they say.
they tell me that it will get better,
one day at a time...
...but sometimes I find that hard to believe.
I sit on my bed
as the memories come flooding back.
I try to push them away,
but they insist on taking up my every waking thought.
Slowly, the calls slow
and the smiles fade.
And I am left on my own.
Without him there.
I imagine things as "fine",
and when anyone asks,
"Everything is great"
....even though it's not.
But sometimes things don't work out.
Hmmm....
funny how life is.
How you can be so happy one minute
and so sad the next.
How you can have so many happy memories...
yet they can make you cry like you've never cried before.
How seeing a smile from him lights up your face...
but darkens your soul.
And how one person can mean so much...
but yet, even love can't keep them there forever.
The hurt and the pain just won't go away
and the tears just won't stop flowing.
It's amazing how love can go and come
so very quickly,
leaving a small hole as it begins,
and creating an incredible gap
when it leaves.
The strength comes gradually.
No, you can't forget.
And yes, time WILL heal.
Never completely,
but soon, the hole begins to get
smaller and smaller.
Friends enter to help.
Family is there, always behind you.
And life begins to look a little better.
A smile crosses my face
as I hear his voice over the phone.
No, it's not the same as it was.
The love isn't there anymore.
But the friendship still is.
I laugh as he makes a joke,
and I think about how it was.
All the fights, the screaming.
The late night calls
and the jealousy.
And I smile.
Because it's better now.
For both of us.
Finally.
So I lay down on my bed,
my hair falling onto my face.
I lean my cheek on the phone
as he asks what I'm up to.
And I have plenty to say.
"life goes on", they tell me...
and I've been thinking...
......maybe they're right after all.
