My mind is blank
my heart is empty
this paged is filled
with the darkest part of me
I haven't seen the sun
in almost a week
funny what an overcast
can really do to me.
My thoughts are racing
but I must block them out
cos you know when I get this way
what all my thoughts are about.
I imagine myself
finally getting the strength
to walk into the kitchen
and grab the blade
to hold it to my wrist
that old familiar sting
push it down
to start the bleeding
hold it down
to my vein
let it linger
feel the pain
it hurts so bad
but that's the best part
now my wrist just matches
my bleeding heart.
Run it across
my soft dry skin
I guess tonight
my demons win.