It hurts to know youre not the THE ONE.
The right ONE...
What is that shit anyway?
Does it even matter?
So much time and investment.
So many dreams slipped by the way side.
Im not enough for you
and you are not enough for me.
Efforts are fruitless
Words and actions don't measure up.
I wanted so much to be there for you
but I need someone there for me too.
It just cant be you.
I don't want to be the adult all the time
I want to have the tantrums
and scream what about me?
There just isnt enough strength
to carry us both through the darkness.
My arms are tired. Im exhausted,
been carring the torch too long.
I just wanted to brake
give out all the shit I have to take.
But theres no soft place to fall.
No rock, no brick wall
to stand firm not fight back and take it all.
Just me and my bare finger tips
digging frantically in the cracks on the floor
for the bits I cant find.
I just cant seem to light your fire.
I'm working so hard keeping the light going on my own. Theres never enough fuel to burn.
Its running off my sheer will.
I don't want to get cold.
I dont want to give up.
but it seems thats all that lies ahead.
I fucking hope not
cause ill be pissed
and there is no hell that won't shrink from
my fucking scorn.