my soul is a wasteland
a desert of pain
in the centre a single rose blooms
watered by tears
and surrounded by thorns of loneliness
any footprints made by happiness
have long since been buried by the howling winds
that blow across this cursed place
once a light shone here
but like a fool
i blew it out leaving only me and the things in the dark
personal demons with names like
fear,loneliness,uncertainty
and every night they whisper of the things
they will do to my already tortured mind
when i walk into the land of my friends
i don a mask
with a smile painted on it
and carry a shield of laughter
to hide behind
few know my real face
or the pain i hide
sometimes an angel walks these plains
to hold my hand and speak of love and kindness
but now she too is gone and i am left alone
to sit and watch the setting sun
as it fades and brings forth the darkness to envelop my spirit
once more
leaving only the ghost of a shadow
to await the new dawn
in the hope that i will hear the gentle flapping of golden wings
to bring hope and love back to me