“Am I good,” she asked.
“Yes, very good darling,” I said.
“Really,” she asked.
“Yes, really darling,” I said
“You’re not just saying that,” she asked.
“No darling – I’m telling the truth,” I said. And I was.
“Don’t just say that,” she said.
“I’m not just saying it. You’re very good,” I said, “for your age,” I added.
“What’s that supposed to mean,” she asked. She was 27.
“It means your very good darling,” I said. I had blundered into a bad place. If she was 33 to 39, I would have been perfectly fine. She would have been perfectly ripe.
“No – No, the age thing – what’s that supposed to mean,” she asked. But there was no recovery. She had understood, without my wanting her to.
“It was a slip of words,” I said. There was no recovery at all.
“No it wasn’t – a slip,” she said, “tell me what you mean by it.”
“It was a slip of words – that’s all,” I said.
“It wasn’t a slip of words – tell me,” she said.
“Shall we really get into this now,” I asked?
“Yes, all the way into it – right now,” she said, “I want to know.”
“Well – it’s not about experience,” I said, “as I said, you’re very good.”
“What’s it about then,” she asked.
“It’s more to do with bodily sophistication,” I said.
“What – and I’m not sophisticated,” she demurred.
“I don’t mean it like that,” I said, “you know I don’t mean it like that.”
“How do you mean it then,” she asked.
La sophistication d'une femme – cela est fourni avec le temps,” I said, “It’s hard to say in English.”
“The sophistication of a woman – that is furnished with time, there I’ve said it – now what does it mean,” she asked.
“Sophistication physically – not rhythmically” I said, “An intuitive something-ness developed in the body by time – not by experience. It’s hard to explain.”
“We’ve got all damn night – explain it,” she said.
“Well, if you put it that way,” I said. I was getting myself in too deep.
“That’s the way I’m putting it,” she said.
“Well in that case, maybe we ought to just go to sleep,” I said.
“I’ll kick you off the bed,” she said.
“Go ahead, kick me off,” I said. She kicked me off. I laughed.
“I’m serious – tell me,” she said.
“This is a silly business darling, let’s just go to sleep,” I said.
“It’s not a silly business – I really wanna know,” she said.
“Maybe in the morning darling,” I said. She pinched me. It hurt.
“Knock it off and be nice,” I said.
“I’ll knock it off when you do,” she said. She pinched me again.
“Knock it off and be a nice girl,” I said.
“I am a nice girl,” she said.
“Yes – a very nice girl, and let’s keep it that way,” I said.
She tried to kick me off the bed again – but I caught her foot… and drew the length of her body under me.
“A very nice girl indeed,” I said.
We fucked again, and that was the end of it.
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How good! I totally ignored
How good! I totally ignored my phone ringing to read this and well I love the ending as much as the faux par. Nicely written held the intimacy and realism well, I felt myself think I've been there before, not the same issue but the same rhythmic dance of words snaking through to get to the truth only to find its actually an eel. Just Good work. Great even! Hugss
Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS
"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."
the fundamental impulses always remain intact
As I grow older, I become deeper inclined to believe that Nature is a finely choreographed dance of sexual impulses – not far removed from the postulations of Sigmund Freud. Sexual energy is both a dynamo – and the impulsive glue, energizing and holding it all together.
And it transcends whatever age we may be, as those fundamental impulses always remain intact.
Yes, things went off the
Yes, things went off the rails with "for your age", but the speaker recovered . . . like a pro one might say. No ego trip, no shouting match, just nature taking its course.
Enjoyed this playful, straight-shooting slice of life.
you said it all
just nature taking its course… you said it all, right there.